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| it has been, well, i don't exactly know.
a very long time and it's time to start this over.
how bout just some quotes for now though.
i'll go into my life another time, eh?
here you go. a much needed update. I know it seems like a million years ago we dated, but it wasn't. Maybe you're over it, maybe it doesn't mean anything to you anymore. Maybe it never did, but it meant a lot to me. You meant a lot to me, & you still do.
Expect all your life to be let down
And to say goodbye to friends you've found
Cause we both will have to leave this town.
For better lives.
Everything was beautiful but we still have dreams to chase
Everything was beautiful but we went our separate ways
Someday we realize that it's better off this way.
It just takes time.
What you must discover is who you are beneath all these labels. To do this, you have to discover what the perceiving principle of these labels is. As you can perceive & conceive of these labels, you have to be able to separate them. You cannot be a label. You cannot be a bunch of ever-changing concepts. This is simple logic. So find out who you're not, & there you will have the answer to who you really are.
Beauty is not showing skin & selling it;
it's the natural figure of one's flaws whose
not afraid to be underweight or overweight
but knows that there is more than just looks. 
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| And here it goes.
I know you've moved on, moved on for good, but there are things you don't know, things that I don't show; things that I hide inside.
I know to you it seems like I didn't care, seems like I was never there, but there was never once a day that you didn't cross my mind a million times.
And believe me, if I could go back, I would, but things are different now.
Time caught up with us & broke us apart, because now you found someone else.
But that's not what bothers me.
What bothers me is that you left me & that I left you, with words unspoken & a story unread.
Words that are still trying to escape my heart & reach out to you, words that don't notice that time has past; words that still have meaning.
What bothers me is that you didn't see the tears I cried & you didn't know that I lied when I told you I was happy.
What bothers me is that you still cross my mind a million times a day & even when I'm sleeping, I can still hear your voice telling me how much you love me or how much you miss me & that's the only time I'm ever happy.
It's when I'm reminiscing about you & dreaming about us.
But when reality hits me, it just kills me.
But the thing that bothers me the most is that all of this could have been prevented if I had just said something or done something, & the only thing that doesn't bother me is that I've learned a valuable lesson; you don't really know what you got until it's gone.  | | |
| well, i think it's time for a much needed update.
how about you?
So, hmm.
I really don't know what to write.
Like, I used to be really good at writing down my life story on this thing, but now it's like meh, why bother.
Does anyone eve read this anymore?
Yeah, i bet not.
Everyones too busy being consumed by myspace and facebook.
Am i right?
Hah, silly of course I'm right.
Oh oh!
Guess who got a modeling job for an advertising lady?
Yeah thats right, me!
Hah, i'm pretty excited.
I've never modeled before, but it sounds like fun.
This woman wants someone to model in some senior pics that she's going to advertise in yearbooks.
So i figure it's going to be pretty cool.
Anyways, thats basically the only cool thing thats happened lately.
Oh well i guess i did injure my knee.. again.
This time i have this condition called IT Band Syndrome.
ugh.
just what I need; more leg problems.
*rolls eyes* whatever.
You know, i'm feeling kind of quote-ish.
so i think i'm going to stop rambling and leave you with random..uh.. thingies.
yes?
great!
until next time my loves!
in every girl's life there are three guys
one that she loves, one that she hates
& one that she can't get enough of.. &
in the end .. they're all the same guy.
We picked up things from each other
random phrases and bad habits
and darling.. I must admit you changed me
A one-minute kiss burns 26 calories
so give me all the kisses you wanna
because baby I’m ready for a workout.
This air is contagious. No one can save us. Nothing this good could ever last & tonight is a drug that i wont give up; This is my favorite addiction.
<33kaleigh. | | |
| wow.
has is been a long time or what?
crazy.
well, theres not too much to update on.
life is great.
aside from me being grounded.
oh well.
valentines days coming up soon.
couldn't be more excited.
I've got the most amazing guy.
=]
[[a butterfly landed on my shirt]]
[[gotta love those kids]]
[[me with this really cool fish thing]]
[[alyssa, brittany && me]]
You think you're strong?
Because you can get every guy you want & yet, I have only one boyfriend?
Because you can wear a white t-shirt & still look gorgeous in it, & that's all I ever wear & look uglier then you ever could?
Well sure you can get all the guys, but you never end up having a real relationship with any of them.
Yeah, you could look gorgeous in just about anything.
But I have my one boyfriend that I love & he loves me & we won't toss each other in a week.
He thinks I look gorgeous in a white tee & that's all that counts to me.
Now that's real strength <33kaleigh. | | |
| I have noticed that if you look carefully
at people's eyes the first five seconds they look at you,
the truth of their feelings will shine through for
just an instant before it flickers away.
they sat together, as just friends.
11:11 rolled around, someone yelled
"make a wish."
they wished for each other.
I do understand the impulse.
the impulse to put your hand out and want someone to
be there at the end of your reach. to want someone
to be close to. to want to kiss or touch even if it's wrong.
the point is you can't control these feelings. even if
they're wrong, they're there. they're always there.
you know, she really did love you
more than anyone else ;
but, you just let her walk into your life
&& right back out
boy, you missed your chance,
because nobody will ever love you,
like that girl did.
so, go get yourself screwed over by one of those sluts,
who have a new boyfriend every week,
because that girl doesn't care anymore
I need a boy to give me
a good hug and say,
"I'm sorry my gender sucks."
& its like this--she was my best friend
i still love her to death, and I'd help her
out with anything.. but things aren't the same
anymore, and i miss it more than anything
Yeah, I talk to other guys
I laugh with other guys
&& I hug other guys
But none of them
will ever mean half as much
To me as you do.
Because once upon a time, we we're best friends.
&& yes, there’s been a lot of bad stuff in between `
but none of that matters right now, okay? You need
me, im there. Anytime, any place; anywhere. .
imperfection is beauty.
madness is genious &
its better to be absolutely ridiculous
then absolutely boring.
& when it comes down to it,
i let them think what they want.
if they care enough to bother with what i do,
im already better then them | | |
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